Family..........fuck em

Today was M's graduation party. A party that my sister put together with 3 of her friends and their kids. NONE of the kids wanted it, and it was completely retarded. They had a table set up at one side of the recreation hall they got for free (can you say red neck?) and for the 3 boys they had little displays set up with the boys' personal belongings like a letterman jacket, a football helmet, boxes to collect money that were labled College Fund, etc. All of them EXCEPT for M. For her, my stupid sister put up her senior picture and some decorative vases and fabric. They had a slide show playing and people kept playing the slide shows of the 3 boys over and over again. M's played 3 times. What the fuck ever happed to a Mother looking out for the best interest of HER CHILD. Yeah that skipped my sister.

Now, onto one of my Aunts. After the laggin party with the bad food, we all came back to our house for coffee and dessert. My fucking Aunt who God Fucking Queen and keep her snide remarks to her fucking self. I don't evenr emember the EXACT conversation but she says to me "Well you parents could tell you to get your own place" . Fucking bitch. Like I dont have enough enough self esteem issues without you pointing out that I don't make enough money to get my own place. I would LOVE to have a place of my own but the sad fuckin fact is, this world will not allow me to. I have done all the "right things". I went to college (paid my own way thank you very much) got a BA and it has not done shit for me. You dont fuckin think I look in the mirror every god dam day and hate what I see??? Thank you very fuckin much Aunt Bitch. Im sorry I am not one of your perfect children.

I'm a run, run , run, run runaway

So my travel buddy and I have both been chomping at the bit to run away again but nowhere pricey or far. Fuck with gas hitting $4.41 a gallon, nobody is running away too far. We decided to run off to a near by city that is about 60ish miles away. There is a mystery house in the same city that neither of us have ever been to, even though we have both lived in this area nearly all of our lives. I guess that is true of a lot of locals, leave the "touristy things" for the tourists. Well, we will be impersonating tourists over the 4th of July weekend. Since we both have a 3 day weekend, we are running off. IF you done like it....fuck you I do what I want (make sure you read that last line like Cartman if you dont know who he is........where the hell have you been for the last decade?????) Here is a sneak peek at the lobby and one of the rooms in this perrrrrrty hotel.

I'm still on the hunt,,,,the JOB hunt that is. There is not much out there and it gets discouraging a lot. I often feel like I wasted my time and money at college because Im not using my degree and it has not done shit to get me more of anything but whispers and funny looks from family and those who claim to be friend. What-fuckin-ever, if you dont like my life...............get the fuck out Im the one living it and I sure as hell am not living it for anyone but me. So kiss my big white ass if'n you dont like my choices. It can ALWAYS be worse, I could be living in a trailer with 2 kids and divorced from a dick who everyone told me not to marry....................hmmmmmmmmmmmmm sounds familiar HA! HA!

Good night "ladies" and boys............yes boys there is no such thing as a man. They are just a fairy tale.

Changes Abooot

I have made some changes. Title and address to reflect my personality a bit more. If you can figure out the meaning behind the address and title, then you are a ROCK STAR. I wanted smartass but it was already taken. Have I mentioned that I have a relatively new job. Have I also mentioned that I really hate it. It NEVER CHANGES! I do the EXACT SAME THING every single fucking day. The only bright spot to this job is that it is 5 minutes from my house so I save a shit load of money on gas. I am searching FEVERISHLY for a new job. I'm not asking for a lot, just a job that I don't hate and will pay me enough to be a grown up. I guess in my state, they dont believe in that even if you have a college degree. Fuck you

Daaaaaancing Queeeeen, yoooouuuung & sweet oooonly seeeeeven- teeen!

This past weekend was M's high school dance show. She's been in the class for 3 years and this year, she had a solo dance that she choreographed herself. The pictures are not that great because we were in the very back of the theatre and my current camera only has a 4x optical zoom (this will be remedied soon as I have my eye balls on some snazzy non-SLR but better than pocket cameras). The digital zoom kicked in but as you can see its a bit grainy. No problem though, I still got one shot :). Her routine was VERY short but a big hit. She did a couple of tumbling passes that were pretty simple for her but wow'd everyone else; some back handsprings, ariel's and drop splits. It was fun, she LOVES being in the spotlight (no matter what she says). I cannot believe that she will be graduating high school this year. My little baby M all grow'd up!
This is the same girl who used to squish butter between her fingers and put her entire head in the mixing bowl to get the brownie batter. A wise man once said "GOOD GRIEF!"

Put me in Coach!

Survey said...............................PLASTIC! I was in a mood today, a shopping mood! I actually went to a mall the day before Mother's Day (yes I'm insane!) with a mission. I had $100 in Nordstrom gift cards that have been burning a hole in my wallet. So with my $100 head start, I went to a mall that would have Nordstrom and Sephora (or as I call it Shangri-La) so off my shopping buddy/travel buddy went. With my $100 backed by my plastic I treated myself to these:
A Coach purse and Christian Dior lip stick and gloss. The purse was on clearance 50% off, the Dior not so much. I wanted to purchase things that I would NEVER buy on my own. I LOVE the Dior lip stick & gloss! It lasts for a long long time and the shade is different from my usual safe brown colors. Its pink without being tooooo pink and it has a little sparkle in it. It feels perfect on, not heavy or goopy. The purse is a perfect travel purse. The strap is adjustable and will sling aross my shoulders. Its not bulky but big enough for my pocket digital camera and other essentials that one needs to carry while traveling. I love the colors; blue, tan, white, it will go with just about everything. I am on a shopping high right now. I found some shirts, earrings, sunglasses and of course make up at Sephora (that I really did need) The only things I bought that I didnt REALLY need were the shirts. My sunglasses are bent, and I was out of some of my makeup. No I dont feel guilty at all, my bills are paid in full so I can treat myself when I want. I LOVE IT!

FINALLY

Well, I finally did it I bought an iPod. Its not the little one either. I always said that if I was going to buy one I buy big and I did. I bought the 80 gig silver one. So far I only have 345 songs on it. Hopefully, I will get the rest of my CD collection on there before Monday. I got it mostly for work because in my office, there is no music and not much talking. I was literally falling asleep at my computer. So far, the only accessory I have purchased for it is a protective sleeve and a square speaker/charger with a tiny little remote I keep next to my bed. Here is my new toy.
People have called me a gadget gal, and I would like to disagree. My list of so called gadgets include the following: a desktop computer (22" wide screen moniter) a printer/scaner with a media card reader, regular tube TV, small basic DVD player, Nintendo DS (about 10 games) compact point & shoot digital camera (6.0 MPs), cell phone (duh), of course my most prized Tassimo, XM Radio for my car and my latest, the iPod. Is that a lot?

1 Year

A year ago today my best friend lost her father to Cancer. It was the worst thing I've ever seen. She was 5 months pregnant with her first child and it was supposed to be the happiest time of her life. After it happened I spent 6 months living with her Mom to try and provide some sort of comfort. I dont know if I really did any good, but I did what I could. I spent the evening with her and her family. Not talking about Charlie but just being there. So many things have changed in the last year. My best friend had her first child and lost her father. I dont know really what do for her anymore, or how I fit into her life. I try to be there for her but not intrude, to let her know that I need her but not be needy. Its VERY weird and VERY difficult. We have been friends for 17 years and for the first time, I don't know how to talk to her.

Baby got BLING!!!!!!

TO ME Happy Birthday to ME Happy Birthday to MEEEEEEE Happy Birthday to me! I cant believe its a year already. It was a good day today. I got up for work and Mom & Dad (okay mostly Mom but Dad was supporting as usual) were VERY excited to give me my bday gifts first thing in the morning. It was in a gift bag and the first thing I opened up was a box of cereal.........mmmmmmmmkay. Next out came a travel magazine with articles on traveling to Europe and London I was like......whats this? I didnt say anything and kept digging and I drew out a small box. In the box was my very first pair of diamond earrings!!!! I told them that as a joke. Mom asked me what I wanted and I blurted out "Diamond earrings" then proceeded to give a few things that I thought were more realistic bday gifts. Yesterday I had dinner at Miss A's house. Miss P and Miss A gave me the Mickey ring, and M gave me the Nordstrom gift card.
After work I got to pick where to go for my bday dinner. How many people were going definately factored in. Since it was just my parents and myself, I chose ...................................................

We headed out to the restaurant. I used to pass it EVERYDAY during my long commute to work. I'd always say someday Im going to go there. Its a small place with AMAZING service and even better food! I had a center cut pork chop, a pear salad and a pear and ginger martini YUM!!!

So, with my collection of Nordstrom gift cards and 2 close friends tomorrow Im off to the city for a day of Farmers Market, Shopping and lunch. This is definately one of my better birthdays. I got to talk to my bestest friend in the entire world, hear my nephew splashing around in his bath and cooing, got a singing voice mail and 2 count them T-W-O chocolate cakes!!!! How much better could it be diamonds and chocolate!

The latest news

My niece finally got the dog she has wanted for a LONG time. Of course, this pissed her Mom off for reasons I will not go into. Mostly because it would take tooo flippin long. Rajah is NOT fond of him AT ALL. Cole is learning to "Leave the Kitty" mostly because the kitty ambushed him one day and kicked the crap out of the little dog (no worries no blood was drawn) and now Cole will not even go to the end of the hall because "THE KITTY is down there" :) He wont even chase his beloved red magic disappearing dot down the hall, he stops halfway and refuses to go. Rajah's sanctuary is my bedroom, he knows that in there, he is safe from everything.
Here is a picture of the little runt when she first got him. I'll show a picture of "Big Boy Cole" at a later date.

Tomorrow I'm going over to a friends house for a BBQ and Im bringing the wine :) Yum Yum! I have connections :) I'm so glad that the weekend is almost here! My job is SOOOOOO BORING but its a paycheck until I find something a bit more challenging and fun. I was loosing a lot of money commuting so far everyday especially with gas prices pushing $4 a gallon! Well I need to go Rajah is wimpering to go outside for another 30 seconds so he can pretend to be a tough outside kitty.

I love Surprises

I know I said I was closing down. Hey maybe I just needed a break. I go through shit like that, so if ya dont like it, too bad its my blog. Really, I got this in the mail and its too good to keep to myself. Yes I fell out of my chair when I opened it, YES I was on the phone to the phone company IMMEDIATELY and YES they fucked up and NO I dont owe $7000 to my cell phone company.

In other news, Marissa had a friend of hers take some pictures of her doing some basic gymnastic moves and here she is. Keep in mind that she has not really been doing gymnastics for about 5 years. She is coaching so she gets to work out occasionally. I am quite proud that my niece can do thisCheck out how high she is! Getting the both of them in gymnastics was the best idea ever! It's a challenge but they love it still today. Both of them coach gymnastics and K knows it is what she wants to do with her life.

Well, I better go I dont want to over inform you on my first day back.

Peace Out

Me Dec 2006
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

So I think I will be retiring my blog. The one reader I have I'm sure will not be upset, I can just call her to tell her what I put on here. I will give it maybe one more week and then I'm done. It all depends on when I can get home to properly delete it. Whatever this is supposed to do for me, it's just become sort of a chore now. I'm not a writer so I have to struggle to think of what to say. Anywhoo, thats it and thanks for stoppin by.

Cabernet Pie and other Yummy things

Cabernet Pie
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

I splurged and treated my family to this pie that is only available during harvest time here in the valley. It is made from the local Cabernet grapes, unseeded. There is a mixed review of this pie locally. You either LOVE IT or hate it. The haters cannot get past the seeds, and wonder why they don't seed the grapes before making the pie. If you take a close look, you will see how many grapes are used to made this pie. IF they were to seed it, it would take them weeks for one pie and there would be nothing left of the grape. Anyway, I got it as a celebration treat welcoming my mother home from the hospital. She is doing a lot better. Still very weak, but on the mend.

In other news, I just got back from an all chick weekend in Tahoe. We has a little snow on the way up and it was BREATH TAKING! No I didn't get pics of snow, mostly because I know my pics would not have done justice to the beauty. Some of the leafy trees were the most beautiful shade of yellow against deep green redwoods with a light snow on the ground. So beautiful in one spot there were at least 10 painters furiously painting attempting to capture the beauty on canvas, Not going to happen but it is locked in my memory.

Here are a couple cabin pics









I was asked to bring something yummy to drink, and I found this beauty at the local Wine & Spirits store. YUM!YUM!YUM!



It has passion fruit, blood oranges, mango and other yummy fruits. Alone over ice or diluted with seltzer water or vodka, and OH...........MY...........GAWD!!!!!! We drank this, I also brought Chocolate Mint Baileys that we put in our coffee. C cooked the entire weekend and WOW! We had apricot glazed pork roast, stuffed cornish game hens, creamy garlic parmigiana potatoes, wedge salads, champagne and OOOOH YUM! She loves to cook and well we love to eat LOL! Saturday, we showered but stayed in our PJS and watched movies and none of us left the cabin. We just gossiped and vegged. It was awesome! We made a deal to come back every year on the same weekend. Maybe next year soeone else can drive so I can enjoy the scenic drive up.

I'm running away!

lake tahoe
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

This weekend I'm running away with a few friends. We rented a log cabin in Lake Tahoe and are going to just.....................veg, watch chick flicks and be without make-up! C is the chef in the group and in charge of the meals for the weekend. I get to bring the liquid dessert..yes thats right folks, liqueur. We will be enjoying Baileys Chocolate Mint, Classic Baileys, and a French one that I will have to tell you about when I get back. I took a picture of the full bottle, but I think I will wait to tell you about it. The place has a wood burning fire place, NOT a gas one. I will also be bringing S'More supplies!



YUM! YUM! YUM! YUM! YUM! It's going to be great to not do ANYTHING!

HE'S HERE!!! HE'S HERE!!!!

Elijah William
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

Welcome to the world Elijah William! Born on September 29, 2007 at about 4pm. Weighing in at 8lbs 12oz and 22 inches long! You certainly made your parents wait A LONG TIME! Your Mommy & Daddy finally got a Dr. to agree with them on when you were really scheduled to appear (September 15) but you liked it in your Mommies tummy so much, you stayed an extra 14 days!!!! Today, your Mommy is doing fine, and everyone around you is filled to the rim with joy! Maybe you were busy chatting with your Grandpa Charlie and lost track of time huh? You are beautiful and I have no doubt that since we waited sooooooo liong to meet you, you are going to do wonderful things in your lifetime!



Always remember little man, if you ever need anything at all, just call on Auntie Sue no questions asked okay! I love you and WELCOME!!!

He's on his way!!!

In the next 24 hours........Baby E will bless this world with his first, MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH AWAITED.. appearance!!! As soon and I know, you will know!

An interesting weekend

Mickeys Burgers
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

Cute huh? I sorta wanna try em. Maybe I will and report back to you.

Well, Friday I was jolted awake by my cell phone at 530am. My Mother had been in the hospital for a couple days due to a severe asthma attack. Her doctor was calling me to tell me that she was just put on a respirator because she "Was tired of breathing"! WHAT?!?! I just left her the night before and she was doing fine, we thought she was going to be coming home soon. Her asthma attack was a severe case of Pneumonia. Her entire right lung is infected with luckily, a common form of Pneumonia. She is slowly getting better and we hope to pull the tube out in a couple more days. Please keep her in your prayers, you are never sure about these things until she is given a clean bill of health.

My brother came over from San Francisco that night to see Mom. After a long day at the hospital he decided that we all needed a good home cooked meal. (He is a chef) As my Dad was cutting up the bread, we both noticed how it looked. You be the judge.

Babys First Computer!!

Babys First Computer
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

I finally did it! I bought a new computer! No, it isnt the IMac, and thats okay. After carefull consideration and price evaluation, I could not justify spending and extra $1000 plus, for a computer with the same amount of memory.

This is my baby! 20 inch W-I-D-E screen monitor a tower that fits behind the monitor and lots of memory to spare! I also got a new prionter, copier, scanner with card readers and the works! The tower has a 13 in 1 card reader as well. Here is the brain of the computer


I am SOOOOOOO EXCITED! Every computer that I have used or had has always been someone elses cast off. This is truely my FIRST computer! GO ME!!!

PS.......dont look so shocked, 2 posts in 2 days!

Path to Nowheres-Ville

a smooth level meandering path
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

I don't know why I feel like I can't post anything without a picture. I guess to me, it makes it more interesting. I'm still having the desire to disappear, not acting on it, but it is difficult to ignore. As I drive home during the harvest & crush the valley smells of crushed grapes and it is HEAVENLY. I just drive with my windows down and inhale DEEPLY! The only smell that is better, is rain hitting hot cement for the first time.

Right now Ks Mom is in LA with her awaiting the arrival of Little E. Tomorrow is the official due date, hopefully, I will get a call telling me that E is not tardy like his oh so cool Auntie Sue, but right on time. Funny, I usually call K on my way home from work a couple times a week for girl talk and a boost that only a best friend can give you, and today when I called, Ks DH answered the phone. It threw me COMPLETELY off!! I think I said, who is this? To which he replied, I'm the other person who lives here and I do get the odd chance to answer the phone. I lost it and started laughing!! Thanks B, I needed a good laugh at nothing in particular.

In closing Id like to say ....................fill in the blank

What is wrong with people??

Kung Foo monkey
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

Next February or March, I will be going on vacation to Hawaii with some friends. I am EXCITED!!! Here is my beef........There are 3 of us DEFINITELY going and maybe 4. The 4th girl was just as excited as us when we asked her to go. We have traveled with her before and she is a lot of fun, which is why we asked her again. She was nervous about the cost, but when we told her the estimated cost was going to be less than $1000 each (not including food & fun) she was all in! Now that we are weeks away from booking, nobody can get a hold of her. I personally have left her 10 messages at home and on her cell phone, and not one return call. If she has suddenly decided not to go, why not just tell us?? She knows that we would not give her a bad time at all. She is a bit more financially strapped than the rest of us, and we get it, we really do, but come on!!! It is SOOOOOOO RUDE to just ignore your friends phone messages! It has been well over a month since I have left her these messages, and other people in our little travel group have left messages for her as well, and NOTHING! I have come across this before and usually I forget the person and move on. Well in this case, I may have to do the same. I am NOT going to chase after her. She is either going to start being considerate and returning calls, or she will find herself left out of everything. Come on people show some consideration to the people you call friends and RETURN A FRIGGIN CALL!!!!!!!!!!!!

Run, run, run, run run away!

Paris view from Bellagio moving sidewalk
Originally uploaded by Disneysue.

Ever get the urge to just run off completely & disappear? I am fighting that urge now and have been fighting it for several weeks. I dont know why I have that urge, but I do. I chose the Vegas picture because it seems to be the place where people run away to. I tool this on a trip I took in 2006 and was excited that it turned out. Anyhoo, thats all for now.